Void that feels so similar. It's been about 6 months since I've realized how hard it's becoming and how often fight. What made rlme relize was when one of my neighbors call the cops on us fighting that was great.
2 years and by a year and a half, I was just tired of everything. Always something going on, some new trauma popping up, some health issue, some "issue" that was now a problem that never was before. I got tired of being the emotional support blanket and having none of my own
I just want to be alone it's been basically 13 years aside from 8 months that I've been in relationships (2) and I'm ready to be a single pringle and get my shit together.
Eagle Call your local shelter. The one in my town is willing to hold on to pets for a couple weeks if people need help. They might hang on to your cats for you