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Gypsy Family Farm
10:42:19 
And that's okay, Ivy; forgive me if it sounds like I am talking down to you, I'm absolutely not.

But you may not have found your person yet. I gather that you are younger, correct me if I am wrong, and it's hard to stay with people some times while everyone is growing and changing. I had a best friend until I was about twelve, and then after that I had a lot of really good friends, but not one person alone, if that makes sense?
The Old Gods
10:41:26 Void Malign
to be honest, if you keep getting dropped by friends, it's probably a sign to examine yourself and your behavior.
Glacier Bay Cove
10:40:30 Arctic Katz
Sounds like they were never true friends at all, in my opinion
Crestwood Eq.
10:39:49 Ivy / poison ivy
arctic

thanks.


this girl (her brother said that to me). she was my best friend. sad truth reveal. i've never had a best friend that stayed for over 8 months.
Crestwood Eq.
10:39:02 Ivy / poison ivy
but you dont understand
Glacier Bay Cove
10:38:47 Arctic Katz
Not sure what is going on, but I will always be a friend to you, Crestwood
Gypsy Family Farm
10:38:42 
Also? If you have lost friends over this, they weren't real friends, they were fandom friends. (I've been there. Still hurts.)
Gypsy Family Farm
10:37:51 
Ivy, that sounds like a good person to block if you can; this kind of social media bullying can escalate and it's already pretty personal.
Crestwood Eq.
10:36:53 Ivy / poison ivy
and now i've lost like 4-6 best friends this month.
Gypsy Family Farm
10:36:47 
Okay this is a new quest. Capture 8 triple subpar horses. LOL.
Crestwood Eq.
10:36:17 Ivy / poison ivy
here's the first bit
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hey ivy just wanted to tell u to stay the heck away from my acc bc yr literally fake i was only acting enthusiastic abt yr ugly crush bc i was trying to be nice but in reality idc no one in their right mind would think that his freak looking self is good looking and idk why yr getting yr hopes up anyway its not like hes even going to look at u and i doubt he likes u bcno one likes u now ik why cari dropped u bc yr self centered and full of yr self now im dropping u and so is my sister dont even dry denying any of this bc my sister told me everything and also stop acting like u care abt liam bc u dont if u truly cared u would have responded to all those pins i sent u! +
Canterwood Acres
10:36:10 Canter
what was going on?
Crestwood Eq.
10:35:48 Ivy / poison ivy
oh wait. i forgot the first bit
Crestwood Eq.
10:35:27 Ivy / poison ivy
"u just act like u care for publicity and clout thats not honoring liams memory anyways i hope everyone finds out the person u really are bc ur not fooling anyone stop being fake for once in yr life be real ad then maybe ppl will start to like u anyways have a great day. and yr not a real directioner either bc u literally told my sister it wouldnt bother u if zayn died like hello numbskull true directioners care abt all 5 boys and u saying that yr crush is better looking than ayn is the biggest lie ive ever heard bc hes not u cant like. ps odd ppl are better than fake ppl."
Crestwood Eq.
10:35:12 Ivy / poison ivy
it has so chatspeak but it's also a direct quote
Canterwood Acres
10:34:58 Canter
what was it?
Crestwood Eq.
10:34:22 Ivy / poison ivy
would anyone care to know what i was just told
Angels angels
10:33:23 [1k+ brindles] Angel
I have the breed a premium brindle quest I have been working on for a few days lol
I had the regular breed a brindle quest last week and I was able to do it the same day within like 50 foals
Niallator Acres
10:33:21 Ivy - Niallator side
i've never had someone be so mean to me...
Sunni
10:31:55 Sunni bunny
Munn knowing my luck it won't happen.

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Gypsy Family Farm
10:42:19 
And that's okay, Ivy; forgive me if it sounds like I am talking down to you, I'm absolutely not.

But you may not have found your person yet. I gather that you are younger, correct me if I am wrong, and it's hard to stay with people some times while everyone is growing and changing. I had a best friend until I was about twelve, and then after that I had a lot of really good friends, but not one person alone, if that makes sense?
The Old Gods
10:41:26 Void Malign
to be honest, if you keep getting dropped by friends, it's probably a sign to examine yourself and your behavior.
Glacier Bay Cove
10:40:30 Arctic Katz
Sounds like they were never true friends at all, in my opinion
Crestwood Eq.
10:39:49 Ivy / poison ivy
arctic

thanks.


this girl (her brother said that to me). she was my best friend. sad truth reveal. i've never had a best friend that stayed for over 8 months.
Crestwood Eq.
10:39:02 Ivy / poison ivy
but you dont understand
Glacier Bay Cove
10:38:47 Arctic Katz
Not sure what is going on, but I will always be a friend to you, Crestwood
Gypsy Family Farm
10:38:42 
Also? If you have lost friends over this, they weren't real friends, they were fandom friends. (I've been there. Still hurts.)
Gypsy Family Farm
10:37:51 
Ivy, that sounds like a good person to block if you can; this kind of social media bullying can escalate and it's already pretty personal.
Crestwood Eq.
10:36:53 Ivy / poison ivy
and now i've lost like 4-6 best friends this month.
Gypsy Family Farm
10:36:47 
Okay this is a new quest. Capture 8 triple subpar horses. LOL.
Crestwood Eq.
10:36:17 Ivy / poison ivy
here's the first bit
-----------
hey ivy just wanted to tell u to stay the heck away from my acc bc yr literally fake i was only acting enthusiastic abt yr ugly crush bc i was trying to be nice but in reality idc no one in their right mind would think that his freak looking self is good looking and idk why yr getting yr hopes up anyway its not like hes even going to look at u and i doubt he likes u bcno one likes u now ik why cari dropped u bc yr self centered and full of yr self now im dropping u and so is my sister dont even dry denying any of this bc my sister told me everything and also stop acting like u care abt liam bc u dont if u truly cared u would have responded to all those pins i sent u! +
Canterwood Acres
10:36:10 Canter
what was going on?
Crestwood Eq.
10:35:48 Ivy / poison ivy
oh wait. i forgot the first bit
Crestwood Eq.
10:35:27 Ivy / poison ivy
"u just act like u care for publicity and clout thats not honoring liams memory anyways i hope everyone finds out the person u really are bc ur not fooling anyone stop being fake for once in yr life be real ad then maybe ppl will start to like u anyways have a great day. and yr not a real directioner either bc u literally told my sister it wouldnt bother u if zayn died like hello numbskull true directioners care abt all 5 boys and u saying that yr crush is better looking than ayn is the biggest lie ive ever heard bc hes not u cant like. ps odd ppl are better than fake ppl."
Crestwood Eq.
10:35:12 Ivy / poison ivy
it has so chatspeak but it's also a direct quote
Canterwood Acres
10:34:58 Canter
what was it?
Crestwood Eq.
10:34:22 Ivy / poison ivy
would anyone care to know what i was just told
Angels angels
10:33:23 [1k+ brindles] Angel
I have the breed a premium brindle quest I have been working on for a few days lol
I had the regular breed a brindle quest last week and I was able to do it the same day within like 50 foals
Niallator Acres
10:33:21 Ivy - Niallator side
i've never had someone be so mean to me...
Sunni
10:31:55 Sunni bunny
Munn knowing my luck it won't happen.

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Nightmares September 1, 2023 03:23 PM

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So I decided to listen to some music on YouTube to help me relax and sleep. It was a root chakra music and usually I turn it off before I fall asleep but I guess I fell asleep before I could. So anyway I fell asleep and I had a lucid nightmare or rather multiple that were one after another. I was aware I was dreaming but couldn't control anything. I woke up for a bit I could tell my body was on high alert but wasn't awake enough to turn the music off. So I fell asleep and the entire time I had nightmares and again,lucid. I was aware the entire time that I was asleep and I could also feel my body freaking out and I'm sure if I didn't wake slowly enough I would have had sleep paralysis. In the meantime I was actively searching for solutions in these nightmares for the nightmares and was aware that my body was not getting adequate rest or relaxation. Now I rarely get nightmares unless something is bothering me alot,all the nightmares were closely related to what was going on consciously too. Is it possible that this caused a fear response and my brain decided it wasn't safe enough to rest?. I also have autism so it might be possible that my brain interpreted the sound differently.
Nightmares September 1, 2023 04:33 PM


Eyrie of the Stars
 
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Hey, I'm sorry you had to go through that, that sounds super scary/frustrating. I also have autism and I have more lucid dreams when I listen to music when I sleep. I think it's the continuing awareness of the sounds that kind of keep me conscious. For me though, I like sleeping with music because I feel like that state helps me process stuff while I sleep, probably the way neurotypicals do automatically, and I usually feel more rested and centered afterwards.

It's possible that sleeping with music has that effect on your brain too, but you've maybe just been dealing with some heavy stuff in your waking hours, especially if it seemed like you were actively searching for a solution in the dream. I think possibly it could have been the weirdness and unknown of the whole situation that made it so scary. The idea that you weren't getting enough rest or relaxation also might have been a self fulfilling prophecy. I can see why your mind would jump to that if you haven't experienced anything like that before, but those thoughts would probably agitate you and actually cause your sleep to be less restful. I've had nightmares in that sort of state related to real life/things I'd thought about before sleeping, but since I'm used to that awareness now, they aren't usually so bad. Also again, since I'm used to this state, my sleep usually ends up feeling more restful/fulfilling. So basically, I would think the fear wasn't caused so much by the way things were related to stuff in real life as it was just a natural reaction to an unknown, frustrating situation that probably felt out of your control.

One thing I do do is I tend to be a very introspective person, and if I feel like there's unprocessed emotions from something earlier in the day, week, or even month or year, I try to match what I'm listening to to those emotions and or listen to something familiar. I think if some of the emotional turmoil is represented in the music, my brain doesn't feel the need to create as dramatic of a situation in the dream in order to work through things. Also if the half conscious part of me knows what I'm listening to, its usually something I have some happy memories tied to, and that happiness creates enough dissonance to crack the realness and fear of the dream. For me, the music that can do both is movie soundtracks, because I've enjoyed listening to them from a young age and they have some complex emotions. I don't know what it would be for you, if you maybe wanted to try sleeping with music again at a time when you don't need sleep so much and just see what happens. Again, sorry you had to deal with that.
Nightmares September 2, 2023 08:18 AM

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Yeah,I usually don't get nightmares let alone dream if I'm not processing or analysing something,which most of the time if I really need to process or understand something deeply my brain will make up metaphors for me to interpret in waking life,if I am dreaming closer to waking life I find that there is less for my brain to process. I only get nightmares under extreme pressure,but this one is most likely not caused by any known stress or other emotional stimuli because no change was present in physical,emotional or mental bodies that would have been enough to trigger a nightmare. Like you I listen to movie soundtracks or specific music before I fall asleep as it help my brain chill out a bit,sometimes I do match it to emotions I feel but sometimes I don't. However the music I listened to this time I sometimes listen too,and I have fallen asleep too that kind of music and had no problems with any other music in that category. What I find interesting though is why my brain went into flight or fight while I was sleeping and was aware that I was doing so. And another interesting thing that happened was I woke up from the nightmare and wasn't awake enough to turn the music off,fell asleep again and the nightmare continued from the exact same spot and then I woke up again and turned it off,stayed up for a couple of hours and then changed the music to what I usually fall asleep too and well,no nightmares only dreaming but this time wasn't fully lucid. Most of the time I am aware that stuff I consume,think about or do will do impact my dream state and am used to stuff like that filtering through,as well as having lucid dreams have become quite common for me too. What really threw me about this is the amount of self created fear that my brain was aware it was creating and then decided that said fear was enough to kick into flight or flight instead of just waking me up or deciding that fear was essentially useless in this situation as there was no actual danger.
Nightmares September 2, 2023 10:04 AM


Eyrie of the Stars
 
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Huh, yeah that is really weird. One other thought I had is if you've been doing any gaming that's out of the ordinary. If I play anything that incites that sort of fight or flight response, a lot of times I will later have a dream involving those same feelings. I'm usually somehow aware it's not something to actually be scared of, but the situation still feels very real and scary. Usually in those sort of dreams there's something that tells me they're replicating a game, but then again I don't play any realistic games.
Nightmares September 2, 2023 10:53 PM

Unus1
 
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Yeah I didn't play any new games involving anything that would have kicked my brain into flight or fight. I usually don't play games that are fast paced or violent as it triggers tension and frustration in me. The only thing I did do was watch a TV show that was aware that it could turn into a nightmare if it really wanted to but I had already been watching for about 2-3 months and only had like one or two dreams about it up until now,which was the first nightmare in nearly 5-6 months,and the only nightmare that completely sacred me even though I was completely aware of everything the entire time. Maybe it was just sitting really deep in my psyche and hadn't tapped into that depth of processing yet that I could begin to understand,and that music might have let me sink deeper into my psyche without me fully knowing the effects of doing so?.

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