My anxiety is a bit different, but I would definitely give counselling a shot! I've only done three sessions, but it really helped me with my anxiety on airplanes.

I'm going to look into a place I used to go for counselling when I was younger, for other issues. So hopefully that will be helpful.

Good luck, Kiwi. Definitely get some professional help.

Everybody's anxiety is different, so while one advice here might work, another won't. It's best to have an irl team to help you out with managing it.

I'm like Eve, my anxiety is/caused by a severe lack of magnesium (I was taking 8 times the recommended dose and my bloodwork still came back so low the doctor was shocked), and B12. Sometimes it helps to know that, because then you can reason your way back to sanity (in my spirals I'll be like "oh, no, go take your pills" and even though I feel anxious it helps knowing the reason why).

I hope you find the thing that works for you and you feel better- it's definitely not a fun thing to live with!

I've got an appointment with a GP later this week, and I'm hoping they will reffer me straight to the places that can help me, as well as set me up with something that might help in the meantime, otherwise appointments are months away for anything else.

I feel like all my anxiety over the past week has been through the roof especially because, I've had a freind staying with me dealing with her own issues as well as 2 assesments I had totally forgotten I have to do one of which I need to film myself completing activities which terrifies me and I want to cry so much as thinking about it.

I also started working again (most weekdays 10+ hour shifts, I am exhausted), I felt so overwhelmed with everything that I had an axiety/panic attack over it earlier today, which is kind of why I'm writing this.

I feel like I have been absolutely going through it over the past week lmao.

Hey, love. I had anxiety bad enough for a while that I was (and still am, though to a lesser degree) considered a selective mute. You're welcome to reach out anytime, as I'd rather not speak about my stuff in public. I'm willing to listen and try to assist where I can <3

Thank you <3

So counciling was a no, Couldn't get in, something about the waitlist being too long and they reccomened me something else which I declined.

My GP helped to the best of his possibility but he reccomened me to a therapist instead because he beleives my lack of confidence (and anxiety) is rooted and caused by experiences and thing that I didn't want to share as well as how I was raised. (however appointments are $200 and I'm yet to get a single one).

So he put me on setraline, which I think has been helping to a certain point but I have much larger but less frequent 'dips' in my mental health.

As I'm getting closer to the end of my semester I'm starting to panic quite a lot more. Like I've got so many assesments to do and like a skills taskbook from my placement that I need to fill out (which I've since been told also that about 14/15 of my experience reflections were not good enough to pass and I need to fix them before June 16th) so I'm just like drowning.

I know I should really talk to my lecturers but I don't know how without overwhelming myself and just crying lmao. Especially because they can see my lack of engagement with the programme resources lately. I'd hate for their immediate thought to be 'well of course you're behind, you don't look at a single thing outside of class besides assesment results'.

Which also speaking of, for the absolute first time in my life I felt happy and confident to submit my work to my lecturer. Like I'd never felt so good about an assesment. And I legitimately ended up getting the lowest grade of my life from it. Which has just eradicated any sense of confidence I had for that class completely. I'm starting to heavily consider dropping the course as a whole. I can't keep up and don't feel competent enough anymore.

I'm starting to feel like no matter what I do it won't ever ease, even just slightly.

Oh Kiwi, I'm so sorry. One of my friends has VERY bad anxiety. Medication, after years of trying different things, transformed her from crying every day to almost never. Please, please try and use medicine. Also, (if you can afford it) try to find a good therapist. Someone who has a heart, and won't break the bank from appointment prices. The one who helped my friend is such a good person - only empathetic people can really help. They are invaluable.

Also, it depends on the person, but my friend went into one of those hospitals for people with anxiety and she got worse, so that should be a last resort if you were to consider it.

But please don't give up! Loosing hope will just make it worse. Now of course, it isn't easy not to, but please don't totally give up.

Sending prayers, and feel free to PM me if you need someone to talk to 🙏 ❤️

Thank you ^^

It's always nice to know that at the very least I'm not the only person who's delt with anxiety, and that people managed to work through it and get a lot better.