Last year was awful. Heck, the last 6 have been. But 2023 has only just begun. It started off good. I got a new (to me) phone for Christmas, and so I was finally able to play some of the games that my old phone didn't support. My brother bought me a Miku otamatone. So life was going pretty well. I made it through my first day back in school, and then-- I got sick. Again. Only lasted 2 days thankfully. But I come back to school, and I immediately have 4 packets worth of classwork/homework to do from a SINGLE class (and I'm still catching up). Other than that that week was fine. Started learning how to play bass guitar. Last week was decent. Nothing eventfull, but lots of makeup work. Everything was going normally. But Friday, I come home from school, all happy because I'd just gotten out of band. I walk into the house, and then am told that my parents have something to discuss with me. Basically, they told me that my best friend,(lets call him J), has something wrong with his heart, and has been recommended to a cardiologist. We had this whole talk, and then they were like "you should text him about it". I keep trying to word out what to say, but it's just no use. J is my best friend, but I think I'd just break down if I tried to talk to him right now. But the thing is I see him at school on Monday (I think, not sure if he's going). Is he going to be upset that I've said nothing? Or will he understand? Will it be just too awkward and silent? I just have no clue. Either way it's just painful to think that he could die. I've already lost one best friend, I don't think I'd make it through losing another.

I was mistakenly diagnosed with something that could lead to sudden death a few years ago. I don't have it, but for a few months I lived with the knowledge that I could die randomly and suddenly in my sleep. It's hard. There's going to be tears and crying, and there's no shame in that. My friends helped me through it in a time where I didn't even want my family to know, so don't be afraid to reach out and tell him that you're there for him and that you care, but let him tell you what he needs as a friend. Does he even want the extra care, or does he want you to treat him with some normalcy? Does he have any memories he wants to make fhat you can be there for? Open the communication and let him be in charge of how you're going to navigate the next few months, because it is going to be hard. Don't be afraid to cry. It's going to happen, and avoiding him just to avoid tears isn't going to help either of you.

I'm sorry you're going through this. It is really, really difficult. 💔

Please please talk to him, you will regret it if you don't. It's going to be tough and there will be tears but its was better than radio silence for both of ye.

Like what puck said let him navigate the next couple of months but I am encouraging you right now to talk to him..even just a "im here for you if you want to talk" text

I appreciate the advice very much, I'm almost certain he's decided to take the approach of acting like usual, and honestly, I'm kinf of glad. He's still going to school like usual, so I'm getting to see him everyday regardless

Update into 2023 sucking: I've been having health issues since March and the doctors can't figure out why. I had to go to the ER in June because the pain was so bad. Then two weeks ago while having a sports physical for band the doctors found a heart murmur. Now, today, my uncle, who's been fighting liver cancer for three years, is in hospis. He's dying today. So yeah, 2023 still sucks.

EDIT: Updating on the friend, they found that whatever is wrong with his heart isn't serious. He was able to continue as normal.

Oh, no. I'm so, so sorry. That's absolutely awful. Sending hugs your way ♡

Thank you. Hugs are much appreciated right now. On the bright side, I've found two things to look forward to this week that might make it become less sucky-- 1) I'm getting a gecko either tomorrow or Wednesday. 2) My family managed to get into the red carpet premier of the new Ahsoka series this coming Thursday.

Oh I'm so sorry for you! I agree, 2023 has been pretty terrible for me too. Losing a friend, losing the best teacher I have had in my whole life. Life kinda sucks sometimes in general. Sorry again for your friend. I hope things work themselves out for you and "J".