I need to get this off my chest, I'm still in school, I'm pretty young and we are currently having a funraiser for this kid that passed a couple years ago in an accident. Which I didn't think much of until another kid passed in a car crash, then I really started spiraling on the topic of death, I talked to my dad about it and he said around my age he got really depressed thinking 'what's the point in life if we just die anyways?' and then I started thinking about it too, I started thinking about all the things that could happen, a car accident, maybe I get sick, maybe there's something at the school, a fire, I don't know but it doesn't matter, I just keep spiraling, and it's gotten to a point where I'm thinking of being older and losing people I love to all the possible things that could happen. I've also stopped thinking about it on all my freetime, but when I do think about it, It's a lot worse. I know thinking about it will engrave it more in my brain but I just feel stuck, and I know it's probably normal because my mom and dad understood, but it feels like so much more than a cannon event, it hurts. And my thoughts go deeper too, It's not just 'what's the point of life if we just die anyways?' It's like falling into a hole that goes on forever, It's more like 'what's the point of life if all I think about is thinking about thinking about overthinking the point of life.'

Oh River I am so sorry for you to be going through this.😞😢

Thank you, I hope I can just forget about it soon, It's like a lump in my throat that won't go away..

Yeah death is unavoidable so make the most of your time here life is so so beautiful and precious and try to fill your time with good memories and experiences and people you love

It sucks that nobody is promised tomorrow but thats just part of life, but so many amazing things are also apart of life

Itll be ok! im sorry youre stuck in a shitty thought spiral right now

Thank you, yep, spirals are rough :')