"I can't help you clean the house when I'm living there, so I'm just going to move in with my best friend"
-my partner of 6 years and father of my child
This is also coming from the same person who takes the trash out once every 3 months, pukes and spits on the floor without cleaning it up. I had to clean up his nose bleed cause he literally just left it there, like all over the floor and toilet.
*sigh* I'm really kicking myself in the ass right now. How did I get here, how did I fall for this.
I hear him constantly harping about the things he doesn't have and things he can't do right then and there even though....the majority of the time he does exactly what he wants and everyone so far has catered to him. It's opened my eyes to my own privileges and I've been feeling extra grateful lately. You know those people you sometimes come across that make you think "I never want to be like that person". This is the 2nd biggest example of that in my personal life. I never want to be the kind of person that constantly has to blame, I never want to be the kind of person that thinks everyone is my enemy, I never want to be the kind of person who thinks they have nothing when they actually have more than most. I am truly hoping I never forget this experience. Anytime I get upset about something or feel played by life, I'm just going to think about how unnecessary all of this turmoil was and remember every good thing about my life.
I honestly just wish he was more honest with himself and me instead of stringing me along, letting me think he actually wants this family. But I really hope he finds what he's looking for.
Sunny
