I don't know where to start, not even a month ago some issues started with our family dog, well technically he was my moms dog but he was extremely attached to me and would be by my side everywhere I went and unfortunately since my mom couldn't do it I had to make the decision to have him put to sleep and it killed me. Having to make that decision for the first time ever because I didn't wanna see him suffer hurt so much. Since then I've had a few other shitty things happen but the one that's honestly killing me right now was my little fur baby I had, I had to make the decision to have her put to sleep a day ago. I didn't wanna do it as she was my shadow she was my world, but I knew as soon as we put our other dog down I knew something was gonna happen. Honestly that night when I just watched her struggling to eat her food, coughing her guts up like she couldn't breath, her whole body just going weird like she'd been smacked up the side of the head with something to violently shaking her head on and off to just yelping in pain. It only took me less then a minute to make that decision because it wasn't fair to her and honestly part of wishes I hadn't but the other part knows that I couldn't let her let suffer anymore and honestly it feels like this year has just decided it has it out for me already. I'm not a very social person so having those 2 fur babies is what kept me company especially because they slept with me would also follow me everywhere and I've never felt so lost in my life I just wish I had time to grieve before losing another. Also a picture of my fur babies the little white one pandy we lost first before we lost the black one Susie