So those of you who don't know me, I'm very involved in FFA and Ag, I have been on 5 different competitive teams, about 2-3 a year. Freshman Year I did Opening/Closing (O/C), Sophmore I did O/C, Impromptu Public Speaking, and Floral Design, I also went to the State FFA Convention. This year I have done O/C, then was on the Job Interview team, and Floral Design team. They cut from from the Job Interview team which I was like fine, very disapointed and sad but fine, then I go to my floral team where they decided to make me a alternate, which means I'm basically just coming to practice and not actually competing, but I'm still required to do the 30min of ID studying a day. Anyways, I went to Indiana a couple of months ago, for a NATIONAL FFA convention, and then applyed for this years State convention. I didn't get in. A bunch of the people who go in don't do very much in FFA, and a bunch are Freshmen. Which nothing against them but we go every year. I only have this year and next year left to go. I feel like being mad about this isn't fair since "oh they are trying to include more people" but 3 of the people selected to go went to Nationals as well. I feel like I'm being cut out of the program, and I'm honnestly not suprised because I feel like I'm useless and in the way. I feel so petty about being upset, but I have been so involved in the program it hurts, and I can't even put out the right words, I'm crying and feel so stupid.

I also want to note I have personally invested around 3k into the program as well.