Ugh so I'm in year 12 (final year of high school) and it's term 1 and I'm already burned out and exhausted. SACE sucks and I literally cannot do maths. Why is differential calculus so hard?? Plus I'm stuck doing it online so only one class a week and we only cover the basic stuff.

I feel like I understand it in class, then when I have to apply it outside of the context we have practiced, I just don't understand.

I don't even know why I work so hard any more. Literally what is the point? I have no idea what uni degree I want to do (partially because I don't care about anything anymore). Up until mid last year, I wanted to be a vet, more than anything and then I don't know what happened but it no longer interests me. I don't really like animals anymore. Then I considered pharmacy but there is only one uni in the state that offers it and its meh, also a lot of work and years of uni + debt for something I'm not really sure about.

Like, I'm doing chem, Bio, maths methods and society and culture. Bio and society are okay, I enjoy them but maths and chemistry suck so much. I hate them both with every fibre of my being. I have no option to swap subjects either, so I am running myself into the ground (especially with maths) for stuff I don't understand.

I feel so trapped without any options other than to grit my teeth and carry on. I don't know if I will pass maths at this point as I am currently butchering this topic that I do not understand at all.

I feel like I spend so much time studying and I still don't understand any of it. I hate studying so much at this point but I don't know what to do.