Last week, I started back on citalopram (antidepressant for anyone who is unaware) and It's made me rather miserable for the past two weeks. Yes it's supposed to increase my seratonin but for me, I generally get worse for a few weeks before getting better. Not ideal at all, Like I've had to have a freind sleeping next to me just to make sure I actually sleep and don't just cry all night or spend all night on spotify. Plus my 'best freind' is going through a whole lot of shit and is basically ignoring me, I'm finding it difficult to deal with that. He's turned to just completely ignoring me in fear of posibly dragging me down with him in his misery which i didn't even find out about till this morning. So for the past two weeks I've just completely assumed I fucked up somewhere and he hated me for it. Which obviously doesn't help that I'm already miserable.

I'm feeling a tid bit zombie-like just dragging myself everywhere rather than having any enthusiasm to anything. I'm like tired 24/7 but can't sleep. Plus any other kiwi knows damn well how hard it is to get help for anything mental health related over here. It's all just a horrible combination of situations.

I'm sorry you're going through this. My roommate is pretty much the same way, and I've been doing what I can to help her. Just remember it will always get better. And it sucks that it's hard to get mental help where you're at.

Thank you <3 I think its really nice if you to be doing what you can for your roommate too ^^

We try to help each other as best we can. When I have bad days she usually buys something she think's I'll like as a surprise. I keep telling her she doesn't have to that but thank you. And as I said things will always get better. If you ever need to talk just PM me, I'm on every day a few times a day.