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Hi all. I'm incredibly sad and missing my other half more then I can write so I thought I would ve a memorial post for him. This was my heart horse. I don't ever think I can love another horse as much as I love him. I miss him with every breath I take and I closer I get to turning 20 the more it hurts. I had to leave him behind. I'm in a wonderful situation now but I left because of an abusive situation. I'm so angry with myself now because I could of done so much more. It kills me that I left him. It kills me even more to know he passed without me. Probably scared, around people who weren't his little girl. Every horse deserves a little girl and I was his. I let him down and for that I hate myself for it. I decided to put a few photos of him being extremely handsome and the amazing horse he was. I miss you Chief. I always will.
https://i.imgur.com/lIMMt2t.jpg Handsome man at a barrel race
https://i.imgur.com/xvBzpb1.jpg My sleek and shiny boy
https://i.imgur.com/wz85mKk.jpg Chief with the stuffed horse named after him
https://i.imgur.com/TqVcfEU.jpg Him being his silly self
https://i.imgur.com/FyIal5K.jpg Bareback riding
This is the first time I haven't had him around for a birthday. I don't know how I will get through tomorrow but he hasn't been far from my thoughts. |
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#459768 |
Hugs. I'm sad to hear he has passed. But please know that his life was so much better because he got to know you. I couldn't be there for my boy either. All your memories with him go to heaven with him. <3 |
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#459970 |
Don´t think too harsh of you, because you had to leave him behind. Your situation was soo hard and i am sure he is happy over there on the evergreen rainbow pastures - because he can see that you are well now and have loving and caring parents and your dogs around you.
Adulting is hard enough - and unfortunately it is part of growing up that e have to leave things behind or loose beloved persons or animals.
But as Eve said: You had a great time with him and he always knew, that you loved him. That is a lot for "just a horse" - because they are NEVER "just a horse" to a special person! |
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#459986 |
I know. I had a hamster and she was like my best friend. No animal is ‘just an animal’ |
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You did what you needed to do, Jaley, and for that you should be proud. I'm so so so sorry that it meant leaving him, though. He's such a lucky boy to have gotten to know you, and at least the majority of his life was wonderful with you. He's in a better place. Nothing really makes it feel better, but you can find peace in knowing that nothing will happen to him now <3 |
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Thank you all. It was the toughest decision I have ever made. My adoptive parents were willing to do nearly anything but put me in harms way to get him. Sadly the only way to bring him to us was to put me in harms way and my mom refused to allow that to happen. I miss him and I feel so guilty but honestly I am very happy here. I have an amazing family and these dogs are fun, Chief would of taught them a thing or two! I really appreciate the kind words from my HEE family and I know you will all be very excited when I get another horse. It will never be Chief but maybe I can love another horse too. |
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#463228 |
I know. You will love a new horse maybe even as much as Choef, and sometimes you will be truly happy, but when youÂ’ll be on your own youÂ’ll feel sad and sore. |
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