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Over the past few day I have been looking at ADHD symptoms and I see myself in all of them. For example I will type fast. It's a habit I don't even care if it's wrong. I will write as fast as I can before going back and editing something just because I can't stand moving my fingers slowly on a keyboard. I have a flip phone case so if I'm ever on my phone I play with the little tag flip bit with the magnet in it. I played with that so much that I managed to pull the magnet out. so after that since I would no longer play with the magnet on the inside I started playing with the whole tag bit and ripped that off so after that I was incredibly agitated over the fact. had nothing to fiddle with so I attached a little string onto my phone case to try rip off instead, I spend more time playing with that than I do on my phone daily like sitting in class that's what I do if I'm bored. If I'm watching youtube on my laptop I will still have my phone with me so I can play with the case. also can't stand wireless headphones because I also have an urge to play with that and get pissed off when I have my wireless ones I will play with the cord of my phone's headphones (I have wire headphones for my phone but they don't connect to my laptop because samsung headphones don't connect to mac). I can easily daydream too, most conversations I have with people I will zone out of in a few seconds because something they said has made me completely stop paying attention to them and focus on the one thing they said. For example at my grandads funeral I found it easy not to cry because If I felt like I wanted to I would zone out and trace along the lines of the plant that was in front of me completely stopping everything and moving all my attention to that one plant for as long as I want and as quickly as I wanted to. I will talk non stop if there is a conversation I can join but I eventually say so much I just start rambling about myself and I feel super bad when I do that but I just can't help it no matter what I will end up turning a conversation to me saying random things about myself, which is the reason I'm barely in HEE chat now I will try join a conversation but in a few moments it will turn into "one time I" and "such and such happened to me today" and I just won't stop. I am very introverted so I never thought I could even nearly have ADHD. My attention span sucks too, I can never play a game for over an hour because I will eventually move onto something else without realising it. I can't cook to save my life either I can't stand the thought of standing in one place doing the same thing for like 20 minutes (cooking mince lol). I struggle focusing on different school subjects too. Today in my cooking class we were supposed to be doing an assignment but I couldn't do it. I tried so many times but my friend was messaging me during class even though we were only a few feet away from each other. Again in maths we got to use a calculator to do something so basic but I couldn't complete it whatsoever because despite knowing exactly how to do it when I got up to it I did a single question and got bored I could have been finished in a few minutes because I am generally good at coordinates stuff, nope instead my mind decided that as soon as I had the motivation I lost it again. I also can't go to sleep in silence just. I must listen to music because I will sing it in my head and I can't listen to slow/relaxing songs going to sleep, it's mostly your new boyfriend, supalonely etc. As soon as I am relaxed I'm just like yeah not tired anymore, I’m rarely ever sleep by 12 and it's been that way for most of my life. One more thing is that even when I am quite generally in uncomfortable situations my mind is having a whole ass panik party. I'm arguing with myself, talking to myself allsorts but not out loud. Bit long, yeah I know but I'm not sure If I have the "confidence" to ask anyone if they too think I could have ADHD and for all I know this could just be my personality but I hate embarrassing myself and feel like everyone I ask will just say it's my personality. Even now I'm scared to post this becasue I feel like someone is just going to tell me it's just my personality :P Edited at May 19, 2021 01:07 AM by Kiwi Mountains
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The only advice I can really give is to go get tested. You should also probably ask family members what you were like as a child, as to get diagnosed with ADHD you have to have experienced symptoms in childhood. I thought I might be ADHD or on the spectrum, but getting tested is an almighty pain in the ass where I'm from and also pricey, *shrugs* so I just never did anything about it. Edited at May 19, 2021 01:16 AM by Mediterranean
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I have ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder), and I personally deal with some of these things. You may have ADHD because of the fidgets and fast typing. I'm not a doctor, so I can't diagnose you. Best advice I can give is to go get tested.
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