Hello guys. I think I owe a few of you an explination as why I've been MIA, and honestly I could use the chance to vent.

Well, the bullshit landslide started a few months ago when I was diagnosed with Grave's Disease. It's an immune disorder that means my thyroid gland produces too much thyroid hormone. Basically it means I'm exaused all the time no matter how much I sleep because my body is always pedal-to-the-metal. My resting heartrate is incredibly high, my hair has been falling out, and any motivation I had for art has just completely dissipated. I take 5 pills in the mornings and it's not many but man it makes me hate everything lmao

Just four days ago, on the 24th, I was given the news that a very close online friend had passed away. Anything I had was suddenly gone, any sense of structure to my life was taken. She was always there for me and I miss her dearly.

On top of all of this, I've been hating only every waking second because I can't get thoughts of my first romantic relationship out of my head. I don't want the relationship back, I'm greyromantic (basically I don't feel romantic attraction very often), and even though I am still interested in the person I wouldn't get into a relationship again. It caused me too much pain. I won't elaborate but it's over. However I still think about it, they way it ended and how happy I was. I'm stuck in the past.

That's all. I probably won't be responding to messages in a timely manner for the reasons stated above as well as a few others. Thanks for understanding. Bye guys.

FirstLightFarms said:

I am so, so sorry. Any of that alone is a lot to go through, and all of it at once is insane. I really hope things start looking up for your health soon. Take care. ♡