So my barn shut down a good few months ago. I honestly thought I was over it for the most part but then I was on Facebook and I saw one of the posts from the new business there. Being an absolute dumbass, I of course just had to go and scroll through all the posts. And it made me hate everything so much because even just looking at the property brings me back. So I was literally sobbing and I texted my friend just to talk, and get my mind off it-I saw her start to reply and delete it, which of course made everything worse. And I'm working at a new barn with two of the ponies from the old one but it's actually harder than just cuttng it out of my life completely, because no matter how much I love the ponies, they still remind me of my old barn.

I literally learned everything I know about horses there, put in a good chunk of my life, and then it was gone. And the worst part is, I'm starting to forget. I still remember the horses, of course, and the people, and the place in general, but I'm losing all those little memories that made it that much more special.

And on top of that, I lost my absolute favourite horse. She wasn't just a favourite, but that one horse that you don't own and never will but love just that much. It was basically a steady stream of the barn's owner selling all my favourite horses (I never loved any of them as much as Rosy though) and then she gave up completely and dropped the entire operation.

Another thing that SUCKS is that I want to take over the barn and maybe even buy back some of the younger horses in a few years, but the person who actually owns the property is a developer. It'll be sucked up by the suburbs before I can save it.

So. That's a long rant. I just wanted to get it off my chest.

Two of the best barns I've worked/lived at are now developments. It's a super shitty feeling to watch such gorgeous, memory-filled land turn into a bunch of shitty subdivisions. I'm sorry it's happening to your farm :(