I want to start this off with my diagnosis I got 2 weeks ago.... I have Borderline personality disorder, Bipolar disorder, Social anxiety, Chronic depression, ADHD, PTSD and last but definitely not least I have Autism.

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My mom never let me go to any Mental checks at all including a psychologist a therapist or any place that could let me know. So this was the first time in 18 years of my life that I was able to go to a mental health specialist at all.

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I went and she asked me so many things and eventually the psychologist diagnosed me with all of those. I have my next appointment in 3 weeks. I had to wait 6 months for my first appointment.

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With my mental health the whole time I was with anyone that I didn't know my whole life I was masking everything. Basically hiding all of my disorders and pretending to be normal the whole time. Its exhausting so much every time I get home from a house I just knock out.

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Just got home from my boyfriends house where his little neices and nephews were there(age 3 2 1 and a 6 month old) his 6 siblings were also there and both of his parents as well.

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I was legitimately there for 14 hours.....I got there at 9am and left at 11pm...

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I had to mask the whole time. And it was so hard I wanted to scream and just run outside.

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After the long day of masking and pretending to be a normal human I had to go home and I went home and my mom took 10 minutes to unlock the door. No she wasn't sleeping she was on Facebook.

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I get all my stuff ready and do all my stuff and then I sat next to my mom on the couch she told me to make her food and coffee...

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I told her no because I was extremely tired from masking my disorders and she went off on me saying that autism isn't real and its just an excuse for people to act stupid and rude. Then she said I only knew I had autism 2 weeks ago and I need to stop using it as an excuse. Yes because masking for 14 hours isn't hard at all.....@-@

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This happens and then she turns on the TV to YouTube and let's me choose...says every person I watch is annoying and dumb....she picks videos and I tell her I don't like this youtuber and she says oh I'm just looking for -the exact person I hate- she then puts it on a ghost show unsolved cases....I've seen every episode like 20 times so they're boring to me and she leaves it on there and refuses to turn the TV off because my autism isn't real apparently.

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I absolutely can not sleep with the TV on. Its just lights changing every 2 seconds and making me more mad. Then she refuses to tell me the wifi password because I don't need it to call my boyfriend because it will keep her awake.... my mom went to bed at 12am and goes to work at 4:30pm so thats 16 hours of sleep.....

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She constantly is rude as fuck about me talking...genuinely just never let's me talk with people. I was talking and she did the blah blah blah hand motion in my face. She also constantly tells me I talk too loud and too much and says I'm annoying because I never stop talking.

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Just wanted to share this because its hella annoying and I don't have any friends to tell this to because all of them stopped talking to me once I moved houses. My only friend is my boyfriend and he already got told all of this so I hope some of yall can relate

Hey, I'm really sorry about how stuff is right now. I have ADHD, an anxiety disorder, depression and PTSD, so I totally see where you coming from with the fact that it's tiring. My closest friend has autism and really struggles with situations that last a long time. It must be so terribly tiring for you staying out for 14 hours, I'm sure that's tiring for any normal person let alone someone who has to mask. I'm sorry that you mum isn't great, and it must be hard being told that all your mental health problems are fake. Wishing you the best, and sending hugs.

Thank you enoki <3

Super sorry to hear asbout your mum being so ignorant. I can't imagine having to hide my mental issues just to go home and have my mother ask me to do shit for her. As a parent she is suposed to support you even if she doesn't beileve something because you are your own person with your own opinion and having disorders really isn't easy especiaslly with society constantly telling us what we should look like, act like etc.

Seeing as you're 18, would moving out be an eventuality? That sounds like a difficult and and exhausting situation to be living in

Firstlight i am trying to move out but I can't get a job because I don't have a car and I used to have a job but my mom forced me to quit after she took my paycheck.... I don't have a license because I never learned how to drive because I'm the youngest of 6 kids I was put on the back burner... we are currently staying at my brother's house because we live in someone's basement that is technically basically illegal...but they are ripping the walls out and taking the entire counter out to fix the plumbing and rebuild the whole wall....she wants to move into a brand new 2 bedroom apartment with all these things but only pay 800 a month but she also has awful credit from not paying things back and her credit is 540 so she's not going to get accepted... I don't know what is wrong with her way of thinking