My biggest goal for 2022 is get on top of my depression. This year I've had a fair amount of stuff going on, causing my mental health to drop, so next year I want to put myself first and try to love healthier :) I'm already on meds, so hopefully I'll be able to complete this goal I the next year :)
Jan17: I'm starting to feel much more energetic now, and feel that I've started to think more about things, sorta like I've got my spark back. It's hard to explain, but I feel as though I've gained much more confidence in myself, both appearance wise and socially wise, so very happy to be starting to feel a difference :)
Feb18: hello again :). School has started up again, and I reckon everything's gone down hill a bit. I'm a lot more anxious, even during everyday things. I'm also getting tested for ADHD sometime soon so that's fun :')
Mar31: Hi! Visited the doctor again this month, my pill dosage is going up to hopefully get rid of the last of the anxiety. I've had a couple moments where it's been bad since then, but otherwise alot better :)
Still waiting to get tested for ADHD tho.
April: covid picked up in my school, spent a fair but of time just laying in bed. I didn't have the energy to get my meds, so I haven't been taking them recently, which I know isn't good, like at all. I guess I'm just worrying over the fact that I'm so much more confident on these meds, which is what their ment to do, but I'm just scared to draw too much attention to myself. But that's the social anxiety for ya
May: Haven't really been taking my pills at all this month, but I feel that I'm doing better without them anyways! I've also been thinking a lot about myself, and over the past couple months I've decided that I'm a lesbian! I believe that I'm aro/ace as well, and I'm still working our gender wise. But yeah. Figuring that out has taken a huge weight of my shoulders.
June: Had a ton of fun this month! I've started taking my pills again, am eating healthier and exceriseing and I feel that it's making a difference! I have the energy to ride more, so I'm progressing there too (fell off today though, so that's great :')) I've been struggling with some body issues, hence the decision to pick up some stuff, and I understand it isn't the best motivation but if I'm getting healthier after years of depression kicking my ass who am I to complain?
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My HEE goal would probably be to incorporate more colour into my program. I'm getting better Ratings wise, but of course, I keep missing the colour. So my goal is to try to get the colour in to my lines and manage to breed some pretty babies!
Jan1: HEE is going okay :) got another WWW boy, and a (plain) WWE filly. This is the luckiest I've been in a while, so yay :)
Feb17: I've decided to start PONs! I've got myself a nice little breeding group and have already bred a WWE and WEE combo :) the WWE has Dun, so that's nice! Hoping for more colour still :)
Mar31: I'm quite happy with this month! I got a WEE girl who seems to be training quite well, and a WWW boy who went all up wk4! He's my best training boy yet, so super happy!
April: I did get a colour girl last month, however, everything else flopped :/. Currently going to start saving for a nice big match with some good quality Broods to try and do better. PONs are going slowly, still dislike me.
May: my WWW boy flopped, sadly. I'm chill with it, just kinda sucks. Got one W girl this RO, but thats it. Going to brood all my girls out this month. If you see this and are interested, message me!
June: bred two horse this month. Both flopped. That's alright though as I'm saving up for
this match!The mare is currently #7PONLB, so I'm super happy I.managed to sçore her brood! The match is for 157, but still excited
July: did a tad of breeding this RO, all just for fun. All EEEs, so I'm crying :) Got all my funds ready for my big match, going all very superstitious for this RO just in case, but yeah! I'm all good!
Clear with Temps dropping into the Teens
